Minutes before sleeping when nobody is watching, judging or making an opinion about you. When you’re no more pretending and behaving in a certain way to fit in a category. When you are with you. Just with you!
In that quiet moment, when that internal monologue starts in your head… What person are you?
Are you a lost helpless man who has not figured out his life yet?
Are you a heartbroken lover from a past relationship?
Or, Does it feel like an invincible and indestructible warrior in you?
Wait for a minute here. Try to remember that moment, it is telling you something.
How does it feel? Good. Bad. Ugly. Scary?
Since the morning alarm to rushing to work, and from Facebook notifications to evening TV shows, the only quite time we get to reflect upon us is when the lights are off and you are in a semi-conscious state just before sleeping.
Unconscious and unable enough to escape from fears you keep running away and,
Conscious enough to feel the reality of the moment.
In that moment, try to listen to this internal monologue happening inside your head; It tells you a lot about your personality and how you are actually feeling under your skin.
Trust me, if you’re not the same person what you showcase to the world; and If you feel different in this silence and darkness, unlike the daytime; then you are actually living a life of self-implicated lie! or something is definitely wrong with you or your thinking pattern, which at least requires being acknowledged.
So… Leaving you with this question.
What person are you? when lights are turned off and you are about to sleep.
Nobody understands, when I tell them my dreams; the sacrifices and efforts I make, to pursue them. I understand that, it’s very difficult for them to perceive, weighing it with their perspectives, comparing it with their lives, and concluding based on their experiences; decisions that led them to successes or failures in their past.
In most cases, either they give me satirical smiles, doubt my abilities or tell me it’s impossible. Because they and their friends couldn’t figure it out. But, this reaction, often, seeds my sensitive mind with self-doubts and somewhat discourages me. And I know that is exactly the thing I’m not supposed to be doing.
The only way out is clearing and cutting off any said (and unsaid) opinions of these people which make me miserable, and to quiet my mind and let something from deep inside me speak to myself. What “I” believe and think of myself.
Deep inside me, a place where I don’t have to protect myself from the opinion of the outer world, where I’m aware of my abilities which I can harness and weaknesses I can overcome, where I can dream anything, be anything without getting limited by possible defeats. Where there are some moments when I feel invincible and stronger like never before. Because In that place, deep inside me I know nothing is impossible!
Souls tends to go back to,
Who feel like home.
~ N R Hart
A place where superficial me, stands face to face with myself, coming from deep inside. And, we always have a meaningful conversation. My inner self: who is courageous enough to dream big, who has bold glaring eyes and an unwavering focus; who finds every reason in the world to keep me motivated; who make me smile right at the face of adversities and convinces me that nothing can stop you! The one who believes, that no harm could come following your heart and trusting your instincts.
The place where nothing is impossible and I can be anything, and achieve anything, whatever I want in this world. Anything!
Signing off… Superficial me…